Have you ever experienced
that moment of panic, the one where you hold your breath for a brief second?
You know, to the point where you realize you just stopped breathing? That
moment when you didn’t expect the unexpected, where you were going along living
life, happy in the moment and then that moment hit.
They can hit at any given
time, so why is it that we’re never prepared? We’re not ready, taken aback,
panic stricken for that sheer moment, but why?
To prolong the moment, if
you’re anything like me, your mind starts racing in a billion directions over
thinking everything up to that point in time. Trying to figure out why the
panic, what is it that you are so afraid of? Then it comes to the debate in
your mind of why am I thinking the worst? Especially when you know beyond a
doubt that you have done absolutely nothing wrong and you know the worst
possible thoughts are merely thoughts that are stuck in your head.
I had that moment,
minutes ago. At the mail box of all things! I opened it up, expecting bills
because really what the hell else comes in the mail these days and even the
bills really don’t ever need to hit paper copy anymore either, however some
things I have yet to change.
Anyway, I found an extra
large envelope in the box and what did I do first? I looked at the return
address! And then what happened? I held my breath and thought
WHAT THE HELL NOW?
Seriously that is exactly
what I thought and honestly I think I probably even voiced those words out
loud. I did, I’m pretty certain of it.
So, then I decided that I
should wait to open the envelope until I was inside my own home, until I was
sitting down, until I was in a little bit more of a relaxed state of mind. But
who am I kidding? Was I any more relaxed? NO. By the time I walked into my place,
sat myself down at the table and ripped that envelope open I had gone thru
every possible scenario with arguments as to why and how it could not be any of
those terrible thoughts that I had just had.
Then what happened?
The first thing I saw in
the envelope was a cheque, addressed to me (don’t kid yourself, it wasn’t
anything exciting, but it was $67.50 that I didn’t have a moment before). And
then I giggled and laughed and smiled and shook my head at the crazy thoughts
that I had just put myself thru. The package was a complete package of
goodness! It was a celebratory package, filled only with what brings me happy
thoughts!
And that’s how we do it,
that’s how we stress ourselves out every single day. We stress our selves out
over thoughts, our own simple thoughts. Regardless of whether or not there’s
any merit to it, anything backing up the possibility of the good, the bad, the
ugly. We still do it, all by ourselves without the help of anyone else.
This was not the blog
post that I had anticipated writing considering it is my first in close to a
year. However, you’ve got to start somewhere so why not here?
Be well and keep smiling,
life really does get better and everything does fall into place if you ensure
you maintain your good character and never let yourself be changed by someone
else’s words or actions.
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