Fat pants...you know you've got them!

I love fall,

I love the crisp mornings

 And

The cool nights

And

The warmth of the sunshine during the day

I love fresh apples,

Going to the pumpkin patch,

Hay rides,

Warm sweaters,

Sweatpants,

Hot tea

And

Fuzzy socks

However, fall also brings along the realization that although the summer was enjoyed, there were far too many summer indulgences, and not nearly enough activities.  I have not been very good to my body, I have ignored my inner voice and pretty much fallen off the wagon for lack of a better term. Even though I have watched the numbers on the scale quickly rise for the past 6 weeks or so (sometimes to the point of avoiding the scale for days on end, ok so maybe even for more than a week at a time). It wasn’t until I went to put on dress pants this morning that it finally hit me in the face that this is a problem that I can no longer ignore.

 

Now, yes, I could go out and buy new pants! However, really, what good would that do? I have pants…they just don’t fit right now; even my fat pants are tight.

And don’t even think about saying “fat pants, you have fat pants?”.

WE ALL HAVE THEM!

So, hitting this wall of OMG what have I done is certainly not how I wanted to start my day. When stress levels are high and then you have a weight issue to deal with on top of it, it is a shitshow situation. Albeit, a shitshow situation that I have created myself, no use in pointing fingers as they all come back to me anyway.

That’s the hardest “pill to swallow”, the fact that I knew it was happening, the warning signs were there (although ignored, put off, tomorrow, later, it’ll be ok). Now, let’s be honest here, I can’t say that my eating habits have gone for a complete spiral, my current state of excess weight gain is from a multitude of factors that are far beyond just what I may or may not be eating and drinking:

Stress

Overindulging

Social feasting

Alcohol

Stress

Lack of exercise

Ignorance

Lack of scheduling

Stress

Apparently it’s time to get some control.

 
It’s sad that we force ourselves to tackle the same battles over and over and over again. You’d think we’d all learn, however we are all human, we are not perfect, we all slip, we all fall and most of us get back up.

Determination, strength, willpower are all currently being called upon.