I love fall,
I love the crisp
mornings
And
The cool nights
And
The warmth of the sunshine
during the day
I love fresh apples,
Going to the pumpkin
patch,
Hay rides,
Warm sweaters,
Sweatpants,
Hot tea
And
Fuzzy socks
However, fall also brings along the realization that although
the summer was enjoyed, there were far too many summer indulgences, and not
nearly enough activities. I have not
been very good to my body, I have ignored my inner voice and pretty much fallen
off the wagon for lack of a better term. Even though I have watched the numbers
on the scale quickly rise for the past 6 weeks or so (sometimes to the point of
avoiding the scale for days on end, ok so maybe even for more than a week at a
time). It wasn’t until I went to put on dress pants this morning that it
finally hit me in the face that this is a problem that I can no longer ignore.
Now, yes, I could go out and buy new pants! However, really,
what good would that do? I have pants…they just don’t fit right now; even my
fat pants are tight.
And don’t even think
about saying “fat pants, you have fat pants?”.
WE ALL HAVE THEM!
So, hitting this wall of OMG what have I done is certainly
not how I wanted to start my day. When stress levels are high and then you have
a weight issue to deal with on top of it, it is a shitshow situation. Albeit, a
shitshow situation that I have created myself, no use in pointing fingers as
they all come back to me anyway.
That’s the hardest “pill to swallow”, the fact that I knew
it was happening, the warning signs were there (although ignored, put off,
tomorrow, later, it’ll be ok). Now, let’s be honest here, I can’t say that my
eating habits have gone for a complete spiral, my current state of excess
weight gain is from a multitude of factors that are far beyond just what I may
or may not be eating and drinking:
Stress
Overindulging
Social feasting
Alcohol
Stress
Lack of exercise
Ignorance
Lack of scheduling
Stress
Apparently it’s time
to get some control.
It’s sad that we force ourselves to tackle the same battles over and over and over again. You’d think we’d all learn, however we are all human, we are not perfect, we all slip, we all fall and most of us get back up.
Determination, strength, willpower are all currently being called upon.
